Today has been the most amazing day. I feel as though I have used that word to its limit today, but honestly — amazing is about the only word I can think of that describes it accurately. It will be forever etched in my memory as one of the most awesome days of my life. I wasn’t really that nervous or scared about being 30, but it was a little strange to think that I would be leaving my 20s behind. I knew that today would be special but I never imagined that God forever imprint this day in my life with so many amazing blessings.
After a rocking sermon, I got baptized at church. I’ve been thinking about doing it again for a while but I’ve been baptized before, when I was 16, and I really didn’t want to be one of those people who gets baptized a bunch of times throughout her life. But after a talk with a friend, I decided that it would be such an amazing experience to do it on my birthday. Talk about birthday! It was such a special moment getting up there and just being filled with God and knowing that He is changing my life and using me to tell the nations about Him and His love. I feel like I could just burst open at the seams with the message He’s given me to share — and I know 30 is going to be the start to the more incredible things He has yet to come for me.
After that, I had the most delicious dim sum Chinese food lunch with my friends Michael and Megan. My belly was full and our conversation was awesome. I love friends who know me well enough to push me in my walk with God and these two are definitely those kind of friends. It was so nice to hang out with them outside of the house and just catch away (although I spent a lot of time with them so… it was like every day, with food!).
Then the sneaky surprising began. I’ve had some suspicions for a while that something secret was being plotted for my birthday, but I didn’t have the means to nail anything down. I had an idea that this lunch was being used as a ploy to get me to my parents’ house somehow. I’ve felt this way for a few weeks now but for the most part, people were good about keeping everything on the DL. Michael and Megan took me to my parents’ house and followed me inside where I was greeted by tons of people — high school friends, college friends, church friends… I was really only missing my YaYas Kim and Hillary. I was, to be honest, speechless because as we pulled up to the house, I had my one moment of doubt, where I thought, “Um. Maybe I’m wrong.” There were no familiar cars to be seen. I did a quick search for some distinctive cars, like Jaimie’s red Fitt, but I didn’t see anything.
Everyone said kind, gracious words about me and made me feel so important and special and most of all — I felt loved to the max. When I sit and think about the people in my life, I often just do not know what to say. To hear people tell me how special I make them feel and how important I am to them means all the world to me — because I feel the same way about each of them and could not imagine doing life without them. My friend Steph told me that I am one of the most unconditional people she knows — I will care for others just because. It was humbling to hear these words because I guess that’s just how I operate — I do love you because you’re you.
I would be remiss if I didn’t use this as a moment to point back to the One who loves me unconditionally. I’ve lived a life where I have every worldly right to love within my rules and boundaries and comfort zone — but God loves with me a reckless, intense, passionate love, regardless of what I have done or will ever do. So I do my best to love my family, friends, and others that way. I fail at this all time time, but to see that He is at work in me and teaching me to be a little more like Him — I just cannot wait to see what other things are to come.
Thank you for this life of mine, my God. You have given me so much more than I could ever have dreamed of and I am just in awe of your good and perfect works.