I woke up at about 4:15 this morning and I’ve been up ever since. I’m not surprised; today is the Pregnancy Center banquet and I’m a bundle of nerves. It’s an event that I helped coordinate and, as of last Thursday, an event at which I’ll be speaking. I’m both nervous and exhilarated at this thought. I’ve got two speeches prepped, depending on the time. I’ve rehearsed and have rewritten a lot. Not many people know because I have to keep reminding myself this IS NOT about me. It’s about raising money to support God’s work at the center: saving mamas and babies and women who have already has abortions.
It’s not about how many people tell me they cried.
It’s not about how well I speak from the memory of my script.
It’s not about applause for me, or for any speaker really.
I am speaking for the glory of God and His kingdom and if all else fails, He has put me in this position for bring Him honor and glorify Him.
So I will.
As I prep for this day (because I’m just gonna have to wing it on four hours of sleep!), I’ve been reading my Bible. I just read about the Crucifixion in Matthew and in chapter 28, after Jesus is risen, an angel speaks these words:
He is not here; for He is risen, as He said. Come, see the place where the Lord lay. (Matthew 28:6 NKJV)
He is not there.
Do you know why? It’s simple.
For He is risen.
On the third day, despite the guards appointed to keep anything strange from happening, Jesus rose from the dead. He died a criminal’s death, knowing that it was what His Father had willed for Him. He lived the calling His Father had given Him.
As He said.
No surprises here. Jesus is exactly who He says He is. He has redeemed me! He bought me with a price! He promises me that He will be with me always!
Thank you, Jesus, for the Cross. I am always overwhelmed during this time of year. When I think about the Cross during the rest of the year, of course I’m thankful for it. But every Easter, I’m reduced to tears by what it actually means.
My sins crucified Him, but His wounds bring me glory.
Oh God. Thank You for Your sacrifice and Your holiness. May I seek it today and all of the days of my life until I dwell in Your very presence in paradise.