I am writing this post in the living room of a dear, dear friend’s house. I am here to dog sit for her two dogs because yesterday evening, my sweet friend brought new life into the world as she and her husband welcomed their first child, a little girl, into their lives. I am so utterly thrilled for them. It’s been a whirlwind year as they have only been married ten months (yes, you read that correctly!). But they are such awesome people and this is such an amazing gift to the world.
I got to meet their lovely girl today. Baby J is just a beautiful baby. She doesn’t look like a newborn. She is, of course, little bitty, but she doesn’t have their weird shaped head or the blotchy skin or any of that. Just a tiny, perfect mouth and soft, clear skin and gorgeous eyes. It always amazes me to see babies for the first time. It makes me marvel at how we all started as those babies and how even before that, we were conceived. The whole process is so mind-blowing that I can’t really fully wrap my brain around it.
But I am also amazed, constantly, by new life in general. How God gives us these babies to raise and love, even if we aren’t parenting them. How through His grace, there are whole generations being born before us. Kiddos who we get to love and pray for and hope to do mighty things with. It’s all new. It’s all so hopeful. Can you even imagine? God knows what a messed up world we live in, yet there He is, saying with each of those new lives, “Keep trying. Keep trying to get it right. Teach her to love me. Teach Him to love me. Love me.“
I am not nearly as forgiving. Who am I kidding — that is an understatement. I am so not forgiving at all! I am not a life-breather, I am a life-extracter. Oh Lord, make me give life this year. I’ll never be able to do it the way you do, but give me wisdom and knowledge so I can lead people to You, the ultimate life-giver.