I can’t believe it’s 2013 already. I can’t believe that 30 years ago, someone was five months pregnant with me, thinking, “I’m having a baby this year.” I can understand what she was thinking because I have found myself thinking constantly today, “I cannot believe that I’ll be 30 this year!” In all honesty, that is really messing with my mind. I think I am — mostly — over the fact that I am turning 30(!) in just over 100 days and am just ready to get on with it already, but logistically speaking… It’s what the cool, hip kids are calling cray-cray these days to think about me being that age. I’ll always feel 18, I think, even when my bones creak and crack more than they do now.
As I’ve thought about turning 30, I’ve thought a lot about my goals and aspirations for this year. I wrote last week about some of those goals, and while I am not altering or deleting or otherwise getting rid of any of them, I want to add one more to that list because I think it is so important to me at the point I find myself in life right now. I really want to spend the next 364 days investing in my friends. God has blessed me with some truly amazing women in my life who have just poured into me and if I’m being honest, there are a lot of times where I feel like I have been pretty selfish with what I’ve allowed myself to take from them. I would like this to be a year where I am intentionally making sure that I am other-focused as opposed to self-focused. My group of friends is pretty diverse so how I invest in them will look different depending on each friend, but the possibility in general is making me giddy.
That’s gonna be a lot of fun to write about because I definitely have some ideas already up my sleeve… And you know what? I feel like so much of my time last year was spent because selfish because I was choosing to do so many things that took time away from others in my life. So this year, what I’m realizing is that there are some things I’m gonna have to say no to. For instance, for the last two years I’ve participated in something called the Cannonball Read. Read 52 books, review them, and share them with other cannonballers, and money gets donated to a kid’s college fund in honor of his deceased mom. So awesome, but it took up so much of my time that it got to the point where it was not fun and more like a chore than anything else. I’ve been debating for a few days whether or not to do it, and ultimately today I decided, and I decided that the answer is no.
No suddenly feels like a really, really good word to say!
You guys, I’m just really excited. This feels like a year with huge possibilities, not just in blessing my friends but in terms of lots of exciting things that will come from the year… I seriously can’t wait to get started and let the things happen instead of just being excited about what’s to come!